An other day and a other hope

After the day is long gone n i toss n turn in bed...
I count my blessings
The day thus gone..do i measure the harvest i reap ...or the seeds i planted?

I know tomorrow is gonna come
And i have to make my choices yet again...
Will i choose to be happy...or will i be sad...
Will i be a victim or ask the world to give me its best shot...
Will i chose pain over pleasure for the lessons it might teach...
Yeah yeah every minute is a challenge and filled with all possible uncertainity
Walk on thin ice...what the heck i ll aswell dance
Shall hold up my head and sing out loud for the world may find me queer
I am happy...its the state to be...like someone so dear tells me each night i sleep
That a clear conscience at the end of the day is indication of happy n well run day...
Also heard a quote a clear conscience is usually a sign of a bad memory..confused me again
Thats when i gotto choose again
To live this day like it was the first and the last...
To love and cherish what life has thrown at me..
Sometimes the days are but extended hours of mindless channel surfing or gaming
And sometimes a walk by the park or the silence so strong inside i can hear my heart beat
Trigger thoughts of all that could be made out of this life...
How so far somehow i never gave myself a chance to be truely happy...
For sure there were wonderful moments sprinkled every single day
But the peace that was lurking jus beyond the surface
Never gave it a chance to touch my life
Somehow all my yesterdays seem to be hoping only for their tomorrows
This is that tomorrow ....
and yet its difficult to train this dragon to take it one day at a time

And so i choose before i slip into an other night dreaming about what seems to be a medley of flashes from yesterdays and hopes for tomorrows
For The morning that might come
May i choose today to tomorrow and
May i bring joy to every life i touch and a smile on every face i see
And be a hopeless romantic and a mindless enthusiast
Cause i choose them over bitter cynicism and mindnumbing indifference
Good night;)